Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Phone Call for a Spirit




Phone call at work.
Unsettling, dismaying.
An unknown voice asks
"How is your mother?"


Confused.
Bewildered.
Perplexed.
Mystified.


Staring at the phone
Groping for coherent words.
"Who is calling?" though I already know.


Follow-up phone calls
on discharged patients.
Records incomplete.


"Don't you know my
mother died the day before
her discharge to hospice?"

Embarrassment and regret.
Sympathy for the caller.
She couldn't have known.

She should have known.
She should have been told.
Sparing us both
Confusion
Regret

15 comments:

AscenderRisesAbove said...

Sorry someone had to stir up your pain and sadness. You are so right - how could she not know...

Star said...

I'm so sorry all this got stirred up again. I hope today will be a better day for you.

Tash said...

I'm so sorry for this happening ~ I can only imagine what it's like to have a phonecall like that.

Hope you're ok ~ and I'm glad you liked the blog link I sent.

Gemma said...

This is touching. Grief comes in waves at times unexpected...just when you think you'll get through it it hits again! Well written. Also Enjoyed reading your previous haikus.

Gypsy Purple said...

So sorry you had to go through that...

Chamara

paris parfait said...

Annie, so sorry to hear this. Inexcusable when these things happen (and they happen all too often). xo

LisaOceandreamer said...

That is a hard moment....a question unbearable to answer - a question that should never have been asked. There could be more, past acquaintances not yet aware...I dread those moments. A question unbearable to answer. I am so very sorry you had that moment.
XOXO
Love,
Lisa

miss*R said...

oh Annie, how I relate to your pain on this. When my first husband was killed in a car accident, I had a phone call about a month later from the hospital saying they were wanting to make a follow up appt. it hurt like hell. many, many hugs from me xoxoxoxo

Susie said...

Annie,
Even after almost five years, this still sometimeshappens to me, and I always feel such an emptiness afterwards.
I can only imagine how it hurts when your loss is still fresh.
(((hugs)))

Tammy said...

Argh! I'm so sorry Annie for all that pain being brought to the surface.

diana said...

((HUGS)) so so sorry...

stephanie said...

Oh Annie, I am so sorry for this call, it must have shaken you to the core.
xxoo

vicci said...

Annie...It has been seven years this May since my beloved Mom passed away...and I STILL get these calls!!!!!!! It throws you off......now...when they ask for her..I just say "She's not here"....

turquoise cro said...

((((((Annie)))))xo,Cinda

susanna said...

Oh dear. I remember answering similar phone calls after my dad died.