Thursday, February 22, 2007

An Odd Day

What an irksome two days it has been. I’m moody, tired, busy as heck and none of it good busy. I woke up yesterday around 4:45 a.m. from a really unpleasant dream. Not a nightmare but bizarre, the sort that hangs with you in detail and now a day and a half later it still lingers. It doesn’t help that my daughter was the star of the show.

I’ve spend the week (since Monday) trying to get some things accomplished and I feel like I have chains on my ankles and am up to my knees in molasses. Today I see Fr. Silva again and I find myself making excuses to not go. Seeing him is a good thing so of course my inner voice that leads me to the line of least resistance encourages me to skip it. After all, I didn’t finish reading
NOVO MILLENNIO INEUNTE. Oh the guilt of that. Then two old friends both told me I was avoiding the meeting so I geared up and decided to get my backside to the appointment. Of course, my 2:30 meeting went into overtime and I missed going anyway. I called and cancelled and will call again tomorrow to reschedule.

Why is it that when we are in the midst of doing something really good for ourselves, we end up doing our best to sabotage the action? Aggravating but then life is like that sometimes.

10 comments:

diana said...

aghhhh self sabotage is present in my life too...
but then... "ship happens " girl.. and I frankly feel you are on this spiritual journey... so it takes a little longer than you originally planned... youll get there!
btw... Ive missed hearing from you . xo

Janet said...

Isn't that the truth? We seem to be our own worst enemies at times. My daughter says it's the universe testing to see if I'm really serious about what I'm doing. If I am, then I can get past the hurdles but if I'm not then I'll give up too easily.

AscenderRisesAbove said...

there are certainly days like that; you just merely walk by things and they fall off the table and onto the floor; for no other reason then you walked past; then it seems like you are two steps behind; but things keep building like this all day and before the day is over you are three days behind!

Gypsy Purple said...

If you find out the answer to thet question...please tell me...I`ll pay you a lot of money for that

jenclair said...

I dunno, but I certainly agree. No sooner than my mind is made up to get back on track, than an excuse comes along to make it difficult!

Star said...

I've had those dreams, too, that seem to stay with you long after you wake up, but it's been a long time.

I'm with Janet; I think that things are being thrown into your path. But I'm not sure if I think they are hurdles or things that will strengthen your resolve to see these good changes through. Stay with it!

Ally Bean said...

Good thoughts on a confusing day. You'll get ahead of it, I'm sure.

LisaOceandreamer said...

Darling Annie, if you come up with the answer to the question at the end please oh please enlighten me. I hope the chains you were feeling have broken free!
XOXO

Naturegirl said...

Perhaps it is time for some quiet meditation....make this special time for ~YoU~ 15 minutes a day that's all.It's working for me and my fog is lifting!hugs NG

Jone said...

I have had drams and days like that. I hope the weekend provides a bit of a respite for you.