Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Still feeling quiet


I am noticing that I'm feeling very quiet, very still, within myself. It is occurring to me that this is an unfamiliar feeling. I have felt this way from time to time before but the root of the cause seems somehow different.

In the past, these still moments accomplished regrouping, restrengthening, when I really needed it. Now it seems more like a lull to reorganize and reorient myself. I still have my small list of things to do, you know, the daily stuff of life that I personally find very easy to ignore. DH will give a strong affirmative to THAT.

I find my evenings totally occupied with crocheting (thank you, mom) and relearning this old artform. There is something almost meditative about crocheting, the repetition of motion that creates its own rhythm. It is relaxing and rewarding.

My camera is not looking at the world at the moment. Since cameras look outward, this makes perfect sense to me. But, the camera is still always there, always in my purse ready to be pulled out.

I find myself scribbling notes to myself for Retabaile's "meme" on driving imperatives. Be assured, Ret, my notebook is filling. Reflecting on driving imperatives is showing me the ebb and flow OF the imperative I've settled upon. That imperative won't be a surprise to anyone who is a regular reader here but actually thinking of the order of things forces me to reflect on my entire life (gee, thanks, Ret). ** smiling here, I promise, Ret **

I find myself musing on poems that don't go anywhere beyond my mind. The brain and the hand seem to be disconnected at the moment.

So, I continue to feel quiet. I'm actually grateful for this feeling. I haven't had a chance to recharge myself, just FOR myself, in I think, my entire life. I don't regret or resent any of what has come before. My life certainly has not been a hard one. But there is something rather like Christmas and birthday all wrapped into one big package that makes this process quietly exciting. And there's that word "quiet" yet again.

20 comments:

vicci said...

I know exactly what you mean Annie....I think this is good for the soul. I've been busy especially with the garden....still have lots to do...plus the everyday things! I mailed you a surprise yesterday..:-)

AnnieElf said...

Vicci, I got the postcard yesterday for the art & craft workshop weekend. That is one terrific postcard. I can hardly wait for August 2-3.

Mary Timme said...

It is gathering that is taking place. That time of peace and content me and inwardness, which seems strange is so important that many times we miss it altogether. I think I've just come out of one of those times, so now I'm very, very busy. Not enough hours in the day kind of thing! It was a good thing to share.

LisaOceandreamer said...

I, too, believe this is good for the soul. It seems as though you've really become more introspective and contemplative. I hope you are finding peace and enjoying the meditative time crocheting too.

I am hoping to make the Placerville weekend workshops btw. MAYBE, but I'd like to.

XOXO
Sending you continued peaceful moments!

Gypsy Purple said...

Annie...I join you...I`m also in a quiet space now...so much so that I took 2 days leave to just be with myself and listen....

Rethabile said...

I, in turn, must thank Geoffrey for originating this magnificent meme.

Beth said...

I can't wait to be in a quiet space and plan to after May 24th. I am stressed to the max at work, so stressed that I took the day off just because. Wanted to visit some of my friends while I had a few minutes. Hi to Annie!!!

Wanda said...

You are in a "good place" Annie. I've been reading CS Lewis and Richard Foster on the Spriritual Disciplines....and silence, solitude and meditation is where real growth, and knowing ones self and God better. You are such a sweet gal....you'll have lots to share with us in "June".
Love you!

lila said...

Recharge.
Handwork is soothing too.

Jone said...

Being quiet with oneself is a good thing. There is some much chatter in the world. I have thought the same about crocheting, meditative as is beadwork.

paris parfait said...

Sometimes being quiet is what we need before we take the next big leap into the next big adventure of our lives! xo

Naturegirl said...

Quiet is a good thing to stay centered. I find at times I don't even answer the phone because I just want to be quiet with my thoughts.
I watched a lady crochet on the plane next to me as I was returning from a recent trip..and yes I felt the relaxation.. almost a zen feeling!
hugs NG

Lee-ann said...

Annie my dear friend, your quiet is such a nice moment for yourself and I just wish we all could find those quiet moment and understand as you do what they are all about.

The peace of quiet fills every part of our body and soul and yes this is a good thing. I loved your comment "just FOR myself" I understand truly I do.

[a} said...

Also, I LOVE that song on your blog right now..the boat song. I had all these windows open right now & it took me ages to find out which one the song was coming from.

tongue in cheek said...

The gift of silent mediation. The gift of listening to silence and not asking it to unveil a word. The gioft of being content in the stillness and not trying to run or fill its pregnant space.

Autrice DelDrago said...

Harmony comes when we find ourselves in tune with..... ourselves! I really do need to stop and allow myself to meditate like this.

Jeremy said...

There is nothing wrong with quiet. It's very much undervalued.

Susie said...

Sometimes we need the quiet to hear what our heart is saying...
:)

Britt-Arnhild said...

It is important to have quiet periods. You get to know yourself better then. Blessings to you.

diana said...

Hey Annie... checking in with you... quiet time is chicken soup for the soul... way to go girl ! xoxo diana